So my weight has been on and off. up and down since I started this thing. I lost 10 more lbs, and then gained it back when Dave came home for r&r. I think I have made this weight lose thing harder than it really is. I have started working out regularly again last week, and then wouldn't you know, I have a sore back and summer cold. I need to let go of whatever is sabbotaging me. What thought or energy is hindering my ability to drop the flab.
Oh I can say it's hard to have a husband deployed. No it's not. Not in this day and age. I can text talk him everyday and see him on skype whenever I want. There are many advantages to being without a husband. I don't have anyone nagging me to buy chips and soda. I can eat my vegetarian meals without someone complianing they need read meat. I have control of the tv. I can workout whenever I want.

I was able to quit smoking cold turkey and they say that it's the hardest addiction to quit. NO SIR! it's sugar. Maybe I am using junk food to compensate for not smoking. Sure I want to a cigarette every now and then. Then I think of the smell, the coughing,and the fact I work in the health industry. I even had the realization, that I never let Wyatt play outside when I smoked I didn't want him around it,if that was the case, i was I around it. So I quit. Eating sugary, fatty foods is easily justifiable. Running erands with a hungry boy, PMS, I did a good job today I deserve a treat. There isn't a cough or a bad smell. I have since paid attention to how I feel when I eat. When it's healthy and what my body needs everything is happy. When it's fatty and/or caked in sugar I feel sluggish and heavy. I plan to hold on to that from this day on.

I have recently joined beachbody.com and have decided to use them to help me lose this on my own. I love the workouts and there are so many inspiring stories of people who have lost hundreds of pounds. I met someone on facebook who lost 150 lbs in a year. I am sure I can lose 60 lbs in a few months. Now I have meal plans and discounts on the all the stuff they sell. No more excuses.

I just have to let go of whatever it is that is stopping me. I write the healthy stuff down on a To Do list like workout and healthy food suggestions and stick it on the fridge. However, when the time comes to workout I have an excuse, such as now with the sickness and my sore back. Or I am too tired. I will not listen to myself. I will listen to my To Do list. I will have to workout at night when my congestion isn't as bad, and set up weekly massage trades to help combate the body soreness from working out.

This fat is going down!!